Decisions are hard to make, but I think walking them out can be even harder!
We have had a great time so far at Seamill catching up with old friends and making some new ones too. We had a time with Carolyn Howard, who is our line leader on the National Leadership Team(NLT). She talked us through some of the things we have been going through and decisions that we have to make, and it was very rewarding. It didn't totally feel like it at the time, in fact I felt very deflated, not because of what Carolyn said, but because I started to look into myself a bit and realise what was going on for me. Introspection is a strange thing, too much is unhealthy, conversly so is too little, and life at the minute has tended to be the latter. You just keep on keeping on until you stop and reflect a wee bit, which opens up a huge vault of stuff that has been building up for ages.
You would think God would have some sort of pattern set for us in the Bible that would help wouldn't you... hold on a minute, maybe he does....
Matthew 14
22Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone,
Interestingly enough, this is just before Jesus, and subsequently Peter, walks on the water. Even if we look at the start of Jesus ministry and the 40 days he spent in the desert, right before "Jesus returned to Galilee in the power of the Spirit" - Luke 4:14
Power of the Spirit, demostrations of the Spirits power, complete calm in the middle of the storm, even though Jesus had been through tough ordeals he came out just as strong after spending time alone in prayer. Loving the Father, loving the Spirit, communion with the Three on earth as the had/have in Heaven. Sounds like a good pattern for me!!
So leading from the front, looks like that is what life has for me in terms of YWAM Aberdeen, even if it is just me!!! Still takes a lot of effort, but then God is with me and so who can be against me!? The next steps for me will be to seek God for concrete vision for the team. What is it that God has created YWAM Aberdeen to be? What form will that take? What words does He want to describe us? What faith goals do we need to have? Lots of questions that need answered. I have been told that I have a breakthrough anointing by a few different people over the last few years, sounds fancy until you look at real life examples, like the bow of a ship going through ice in the Arctic! Smash bang whallop, not pretty, ending up with a sore head! Still, that is what we need in Aberdeen, breakthrough.
Right, that is enough for now. More on work vision etc. when it comes to me I think...
